Blog – 21 Lessons learnt from Loss

When I pause

Day 14 of 21

14 May 2022

“I keep myself busy with all the things I do,

But each time I pause, I always think of you!”

Seven years ago today, we had no idea that we just had one week left with our mum. How could have we known? She seemed well and happy and even had an even more radiant glow about her.

There is a saying in some cultures that as you come to the end of your life on earth, you emanate a different light. I noticed this about my mum but never thought at the time that she was getting ready to leave.

I remember becoming busier after she left, whether it was searching for answers through reading or learning new things to see if I could be closer to her, I kept very busy. Seven years on and that hasn’t stopped. I find that I now am involved is so many more things which I don’t think I would have done if she was still here. I feel a thirst to do more, as with me, I carry her legacy of love and giving and with this, she lives. Perhaps this is the way I understand how to cope.

But each time I pause, she is in my every thought. I carry her in my heart forever